*looks about* hullo? yes tis Kuso here back from the grave On a request from a few people i must tell you all my gallery is now at Yeah i needed the change so if you want me i'll be there from now on ok? good
~kuso

(1) The singular most boring question: What is your name? Amanda. I want to change my name I do
(2) Are you happy with it? Were you even listening?
(3) Are you named after anyone? Don’t think so..
(5) Your screenname: DarkenedSoul4389
(6) Would you name a child of yours after you? No.
(7) Then what would you name your children? I hate children..
(8 )If you were born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name be? They were going to call be paul.. oo;;
(9) If you could switch names with a friend, who would that be? Urm.. I have no idea. Although mint is a good one
(10) Are there any mispronunciations/typos that people do with your name constantly? Nope.
(11) Would you drop your last name if you became famous? Most probably but like that will ever happen.

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BASICS
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(12) Your sex: Female
(13) Straight/gay/bi? Im sorry to tell my friends that I am straight and that all the ‘fun’ I have with my friends are just a joke you sick, sick people.
(14) Single? And proud.
(15) Want to be? Damn it! Read my fucking answers!
(16) Your birth date: 11th January 1988
(17) Your age: 15
(1 Age you act: Depends..
(19) Age you wish you were: 18?
(20) Your height: Minature.
(21) The color of your eyes: Dark brown.
(22) Happy with it? Don’t care.
(23) The color of your hair: Brown but it shall have red in it soon.
(24) Happy with it? Guess so.
(25) Left/right/ambidextrous? To be ambidextrous would be interesting..
(26) Your living arrangement? With tourists who like poking me with a stick while im trying to sleep in my cage.
(27) Your family: Hell with them.
(2 Have any pets? Fish. Lots and lots of fish. This also adds to why I dislike my mother.
(29) What's your job: Student. Im a right lazy sod.
(30) Piercings? Ears.
(31) Tattoos? One day...
(32) Obsessions? All my characters. I cant stop drawing them and sometimes veen end up talking like them. Uh.. jack sparrow, lestat from QOTD, various other fictional characters. Yes I live in a fantasy world.
(33) Addictions? Chocolate, cheese, blood(I kid you not) and all of the above.
(35) Do you speak another language? German, thai, a bit of Japanese, Chinese and of course. English.
(36) Have a favourite quote? I have a fave quote being worthwhile?
(37) Do you have a web page? Do I have to?

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DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
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(3 Do you live in the moment? *cough* no comment.
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? Eh…. No comment once again.
(40) Do you have any secrets? My life is ruled by secrets.
(41) Do you hate yourself? All the time.
(42) Do you like your handwriting? Nupe.
(43) Do you have any bad habits? Sure I do but im going to stay silent for this one.
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people? Art is the only thing im complimented on online and sometimes offline and very rarely while doing sports. I hate compliments half the time.
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? I would sue the person who made a movie about my life and then hunt them down and torture them until they met a ver slow and painful end.
(46) What's your biggest fear? Day-to-day? Hardly anything.. but I really do hate waking up in the morning to find a spider in my bathtub. x___o;
(47) Can you sing? Hell no and no one will ever hear me.
(4 Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? No.
(49) Are you a loner? Depends on hoe life treats me. Most often it doesn’t treat me well so I’d like to be alone to think sometimes.
(50) What are your no. 1 priorities in life? No idea.
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you? No.
(52) Are you a daredevil? I have no idea..
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? I hate everything about myself.
(54) Are you passive or aggressive? Aggressive I would figure..
(55) Have you got a journal? Yes.
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? Strengths – Draw well enough to see what the fucking picture is, can actually hit a bloody volleyball and get it over the net in p.e. Weaknesses – I get angry and depressed far too easily. Urm.. I guess I can fogive far to easily sometimes… damn my parents. I get too involved in things in which arnt good for me one way or another. It’s really a addiction.
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? I couldn’t choose. I would rather change the whole of myself cause I fucked up in life enough as it is.
(58 ) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity. You can only drink out of one – Creativity.
(59) How do you vent? I cry, punch something. Very often the wall, sometimes physically hurt myself or just draw the pain away.
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong? No. Im far too unstable.
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? I regret many things. Far too many to write down here.
(62) Do you think life has been good so far? Can you even read?
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? Never to mess with metal fences. They hurt a hell of a lot.
(64) What do you like the most about your body? I suppose my hair is the only thing but even then I cant be arsed to brush it.
(65) And least? Just me in whole.
(66) Do you think you are good looking? I wish. Actually… wait no I don’t.
(67) Are you confident? No.
(68 ) What is the fictional character you're most like? I don’t know. It varies I think.
(69) Do people know how you feel? No. they never know how I feel. 90% of the time they’re wrong.
(70) Are you perceived wrongly? Often.


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DO YOU...
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(71) Smoke? Nope and I don’t intend to unless of course I really hated myself more than I do now.
(72) Do drugs? You have any?
(73) Read the newspaper? I have newspapers.
(74) Pray? No.
(75) Go to church? God wouldn’t have me in there.
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you? Sometimes. But usually I get pissed off wih them and block them.
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals? Unless the shelf above my head breaks, no.
(7 Take walks in the rain? Often.
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them? Not really. I usually just glare or snap.
(80) Drive? I wish. *runs over old granny*
(81) Like to drive fast? Hell yes.

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WOULD OR HAVE YOU EVER...
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(82) Liked your voice? No.
(83) Hurt yourself? Depends how your using those terms. Yes in the way im constantly out for fights and no because there’s too much I want to do in life before I die.
(84) Been out of the country? Many places.
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick? Yups.
(86) Had sex? Wouldn’t you like to know? Answer: no.
(87) Been unfaithful? Nupe.
(88 ) Been in love? I thought I was once but I was fr too young and stupid.
(89) Done drugs? No.
(90) Gone skinny dipping? You sick pervert _;
(91) Had a medical emergency? Got punched in the stomach and got rushed to hospital after sitting in a room coughing up blood and being sick for an hour before they thought something was wrong.
(92) Had a surgery? Nope.
(93) Ran away from home? No.
(94) Played strip poker? Yeah... all the time. --;
(95) Gotten beaten up? Far too many times for my liking.
(96) Beaten someone up? Not badly. They got away fine.
(97) Been picked on? Yes.
(9 Been on stage? Very often and they even set a fucking camera on me twice. Once for the fashion show which I had recently and another which was broadcast on the Thailand news.
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath? Never been that pissed before.
(100) Slept outdoors? Yep and I disliked it.
(101) Thought about suicide? No comment.
(102) Pulled an all-nighter? Once. But no one cared.
(103) If yes, what is your record? Cant remember.
(104) Gone one day without food? A week actually. I was far to ill to eat anything.
(105) Talked on the phone all night? Nope I’d be murdered for that. lol
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex first(moms and daddys don't count)? How am I supposed to know? I have a memory of a goldfish.
(107) Slept all day? Yep.
(10 Killed someone? Sadly no.
(109) Made out with a stranger? Urm.. no.
(110) Had sex with a stranger? Hell no.
(111) Thought you're going crazy? Im completely sane in my views although my latters would prove otherwise..
(112) Kissed the same sex? Properly made out with? No force on this earth.
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex? See above.
(114) Been betrayed? Hope not oo;
(115) Had a dream that came true? So often it’s scary.
(116) Broken the law? Mmm.. maybe. Nothing to big though.
(117) Met a famous person? Cant remember.
(118 ) Masturbated? Your really pushing your luck here mate. No
(119) Masturbated with something other then your hand? As above.
(120) Have you ever killed an animal by accident? Yeah. Lot’s of crustateans and insects.
(121) On purpose? other than bugs? Nope.

[missing questions??]

(145) Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? Im extremely trustworthy with secrets. There are some I stil keep till this day from go knows how long ago.
(146) Stolen anything? Yup. Nothing big.
(147) Been on radio/tv? Read question “Have you been on stage before?”
(14 Been in a mosh-pit? Maybe.
(149) Had a nervous breakdown? Many times.
(150) Considered religious vocation? Fuck no.
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance? No.
(152) Bungee jumped? One day..
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back? The term is ‘had dreamS’.

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CLOTHES and other fashion shit
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(154) Shoe brand? Sketchers, nike, any sport shoe brand really.
(155) Brand of clothing? Don’t wear designer if that’s what you mean. I just buy stuff from the small shops.
(156) Cologne/perfume? Think not.
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work? Navy blue trousers and shirt. I hate the jumpers so yeah I freeze.
(158 ) That's what I wear ALL the time. Regardless of occasion. ?
(159) Wear hats? Once a week when I go to my local riding stable for a few hours.
(160) Judge other people by their clothing? Nope.
(161) Wear make-up? Black, dark colours.
(162) Favourite place to shop? Don’t like shopping much.
(163) Favourite article of clothing? There’s more than one. My baggy jeans, black top and black net top I wear over it. White butterfly top (I don’t know why I like it, but I just do) and my new ankle long leather jacket x)
(164) Are you trendy? And I would be why?
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school? Your kidding right?

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BELIEFS
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(166) Believe in life on other planets? Yep.
(167) Miracles? Mm.. some.
(168 ) Astrology? Hardly they usually know whats happening but they never actually predict correctly the future of that happening.
(169) Magic? Uh huh
(170) God? Possibly
(171) Satan? As above.
(172) Santa? I never did belive in him, even as a little kid. I was a non-beliver which probably why im so screwed up in the head now.
(173) Ghosts? Very much so.
(174) Luck? No luck has ver come to pass by me.
(175) Love at first sight? Wouldn’t think so.
(176) Yin and Yang (that good can't exist without the bad)? I suppose…
(177) Witches? Yeah, they’re out there. The good and the bad.
(178 ) Easter bunny? Sam as santa.
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? Depends on the person’s will.
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? Yeah..
(181) Do you wish on stars? Sometimes.

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DEEP THEOLOGICAL QUESTIONS
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(182) Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? Possibly. In some ways. Hell sounds far more interesting then goody, goody heaven.
(183) Do you think God has a gender? Im a non-believer so I couldn’t care less.
(184) Do you think that science counteracts religion? Most of the time.
(185) Do you believe in organized religion? Yeah. Some religions actually organise the killing of their own daughters. OO;
(186) Where do you think we go when we die? Drift around. Or at least I will.

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AMIGOS
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(187) Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? Yup.
(188 ) Who is your best friend? Most probably Gem. She’s always there for me, more often than the others.
(189) Who's the one person that knows most about you? More than one to be precise. Lou, Perri, Gem and some of the guys. They seem to know what im going to do next very often.
(190) What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? Noever got good adice although recently I have given good advice for the first time in what…? ever.
(191) Your favourite inside joke? Down laddie!
(192) Thing you're picked on most about? Individuality.
(193) Who's your longest known friend? Louise and Perri.
(194) Newest? Mmm… all the same really, although all the guys came at the same time so I can consider them as the newest.

love(d)/hate(d);
[+]high school: Never been to one.
[+]coloring books: it’s ‘colouring books’ not ‘coloring books’ god… don’t you people learn?
[+]video games: Yay.
[+]your parents: Dislike.
[+]reading: Enjoyable
[+]mathematics: Burning hate.
[+]rats: Cute.
[+]nature: Love.
[+]black and white photos: Love.
[+]feet: Urm? oO;
[+]showers: It’s a shower.. what’s great about that?
[+]stray cats/dogs: Yay.
[+]siblings: Sometimes love.
[+]your car: *breaks down in sobs*
[+]medicine: Hate.
[+]Madonna: Ok.
[+]red roses: Reminds me of blood so I like.
[+]your house: Hate.
[+]cotton candy: Sweet food which can give you a suger high is always good
[+]carebears: They’re up to something I swear.. them and their little picture tummies..
[+]fairy tales: Depends.
[+]forks: They’re sharp and pointy x)
[+]mexican food: Good.
[+]organized religion: Whatever..
[+]telephones: Okish.. hard to tell wether someone is lying or not.
[+]Mac Computers: Had one once. Very weak though.
[+]music CDs': Love.
[+]clowns: Annoying.
[+]nuns: too nice.


if you could have only one;
.x.dog/cat: dog
.x.computer/telephone: computer
.x.genitals/left leg: Urm…
.x.friend/soul mate: Soul mate.
.x.house/food: Food. What's the point of starving to death in a house?
.x.sight/hearing: Sight.
.x.camera/book: Book.
.x.parents/siblings: Parents. Couldnt stand living with siblings more so than my parents.
.x.pen/paper: Paper.
.x.bed/bath: Bed.
.x.soap/toothbrush: Toothbrush.
.x.AIM/phone: AIM.


EDIT: I'd also like to announce to everyone who even bothers wtahcing me. (why do you do it? ) that i have a new DA account that shall remain secret and known to only a few in which I can either trust or even allow to know who is the artist. So yes i shall rarely go on this account except to check up on stuff and maybe post a few of my 'nice' art. So good day and if you want to note me and i'll give yer the name.
~kuso

Things to do;

-Multiple fursona's: No where near completed... -.-
-Rose's Birthday gift: Sketch-Still to be outlined when ever I find both my pen and the sketch in waiting...
-Angie's Birthday gift: Inked-unscanned
-Silver Collab: Still needing to find something to sketch --;
-Own art: Piles upon piles of inked yet unscanned work just cluttering up my folder... *snarl*
-Survie the f--ing exams! --;;;

That is all... although i must stress to all those that have art waiting. BE PATIENT! *glares at a certain few outside the virtual world* Dont think i dont know your watching me you annoying things. -.-

*patters about aimlessly*
The fashion show's tonight and me and my groupie are the opening act for showing clothes! OO;; that's not right...
Urgh.. i have just under 1 hour to learn the routine and remeber it without fail or im just screwed +_+
AND that little bitch of a person thing which supplied us with our clothes sold half of them meaning we had to go and re-choose them in school! *stabs, kills, etc*
Dear lord... this is gonna be the most stressful day of my life to date... The jeans im meanna be wearing are TIGHT. which is so very incredibly bad cause i havge to bend down! *cringes*
What am i gonna do, what am i gonna do?? *patters around again* o_____e

I guess after tonight everything will be A.O.K again so i should be looking forwards to it. meep... anyway i'll get going i have a english thing that needs to be in right about now so toodles!

P.s I might be getting photos of my amazingly eventful night, backstage and what not so look out

Right.. My new journal entry is set out to one person for this special yet for now secret broatcast..
Beware bitch cause if i find you stealing any one of my chracters ever again (persona or look) i'll use your head for a basketball and slam against the board so hard your brains will fall out and mess up the courts.. then i shall let the dogs in so that they may sniff unhappily at what little imagination that you contain and walk away just to prove how worthless and pathetic it may be.
Once again i warn. ONE MORE FUCKING TIME AND YOUR DEAD.

Ahem... onto futher things that should be in the journal and not the following in which i had just to mention... For those close to me i'll fill you in later but for now it's onto brighter notices... (or as bright as bright Kuso can get)

Old hallow's eve is fast approching and we-re all up for the costumes of fright and scare (or for those who dont like it you can have the nice non-scary things) so what yer gonna be peeps? im just so curious... As for me i shall obtain the happy place of the Jackel from 13Ghosts (original, no? lol) meaning i get to wear a white jacket with bonds and chains! *jumps for joy* and a CAGE ON MY HEAD... WOW.

Art is starting to slowly fill back my system and so i shall be scanning more and more sometime soon unless of course i get another artist's block. *cough*...
More of Kura shall be made due to the project being due in tommorow, thank god i scanned it first... lol, so expect a new fave pic of mine cause i figure it to be better then the one i have currently now ^^
Art collabs.... *twitches* i wanna do 'em... *twitch**twitch* but shall my schedual allow me? it's very depressing... maybe i can sketch and others can colour so nerf... o__e
I need sleep... sleeeeeppppp.....
Right.. im off to bed so night folks! ^^